Happy Birthday G

G is turning 29 today. We went for a movie last night, Warlords. It was 15 mins to 00.00 am, we were both in a taxi ride home, been naughty but nice night.. ;). When the clock turns to 00.01, I was the first one to wish him Happy Birthday.

A Never Ending Quest

..to find the self within you.

I woke up this morning and it's pouring rain outside. As the dawn breaks, it dawns on me that letting go can sometimes be a bit painful in the heart. Yes, I cried just like the sky pours its heart out this very morning.

I have a meeting with one of my supervisor this morning. I felt more confident now than I was a couple of months back, yet still I need to tap on motivation soon, very soon.

You see, miss M is miss M and G is G.

I just had a little conversation with G tonight. I was a bit surprised that he brought up this conversation about us and what we're about. I've been seeing him regularly for the past almost 5 months now. I guess it kinda freaked him up that he thinks that I think that things are getting serious. Ah men and their HUGE ego and confidence. Anyway, it's all cleared now, "Yup, G is G, and miss M is miss M.". Sad but true, and strangely enlightening.

Life goes on and still good.

Left Behind

As 2008 kicks off, I, unfortunately was a bit left behind on my thesis project. The reason is I have lack of motivation to go through all the process. The lack of motivation is because of this huge disappointment towards the school. To be frank, the school have been nothing but crappy management and lack of expertise. The urge to quit grew stronger ever since I came back from M city. The feeling of being cheated and fooled at eats me up bit by bit. I am pissed, even more I actually felt trapped, like a helpless rat on its tail. Not dead, just irritated by the agonizing pain.

Now, I find it really difficult to move on. Plus, school muggles does not make it any easier. From time to time I just want to yell 'fark you retarded idiots!' shessh! sometimes living in this country is just emotionally AND physically famishing.

Anyway, I gotta finish what I've started. Bitching around won't get my thesis done ain't it? :D