Uneasy.

Hm, I feel a bit uneasy tonight because 'this' paranoia keeps coming and going.
I hate being scared.
It's normal but it's stupid.
Just stupid.

Ready Before Its Time.

This place is giving me
nothing at all
that's why is time for me to leave now
This city is full of sunshine
but it is so damn cold
I want to leave now, I want to leave now, I want to leave now

I woke up late this morning. My alarm sets off at 6 30 and I end up waking up at 8 10, and my first thought was, alright I am late but then I will not do a thing about it. I am just going to lay here on my bed staring at my white boring ceilings blankly for many many minutes.

I've been very much lazy to read and write my thesis or doing some form of progress, its February already and I can't seem to push myself. I hate it. I hate not being able to focus on something, anything.

Maybe I am tired. Maybe I want to get over this and move on to the next phase. But I know that I can't beat Time, no matter what I do or say I just can't cheat on Time. No matter how hard I want to move on. I can never beat Time. WE can never beat Time.

this place is taking over a part of me
I'll find happiness in somewhere deeper
no regrets or cigarettes
'cause I'm ready, ready to go
Ready oh ready to go ready

have you ever woke up and wonder what happened to the day?

There are lot of things in my mind lately, too many things I don't even know where to start.

Manage to get these books to read, non-thesis related that is tee-hee,
1) Hocus Pocus by Kurt Vonnegut
2) The Vagina Monologues by Eve Ensler

Hm, I miss home. I hope things work out this Thurs so I can go to Indonesia for a while.

Sikh got my attention

There is one supreme eternal reality; the truth; immanent in all things; creator of all things; immanent in creation. Without fear and without hatred; not subject to time; beyond birth and death; self-revealing. Known by the Guru’s grace.

missing something?

it seems that i've been missing drama in my so called love life.
wait a minute, i don't exactly have one.
better get dvds' on the drama section.

sometimes life can be THAT simple.
heheh.

How to get a stress-free miss m.

Very tricky. Miss M is basically an overly controlled person. She likes to keep things to her self, avoids being helpless and complaining. To compensate she releases it with being cynic and skeptic. As the time passes by, a solitary habit starting grow and she doesn't know why. Miss M is also in denial that she is in fact just another weak human being. She thinks she can do everything right and perfect.

Currently, she is thinking to loosen up a bit or rather a lot in Miss M's dictionary, however she does not know how. So, she is trying to google it.

Here are some of the potential finding that might be helpful to Miss M attempt into a stress free Miss M :

1) Routine Exercise.
She should make use of that swimming pool downstairs.
2) Yoga.
She should utilize the beauty of YouTube more than just watching non sense like ManaMana.
3) Follow her plan.
She should get her self on the run. Worry less about the future and live in the now.
4) She needs a drink.
And a healthy life style. Eat proper Miss M!
5) Breathe.

Okay, lets do this and lets make things happen baby!

choose hope over fear.