tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76885632070025514482011-04-22T11:08:18.690+08:00miss mnoreply@blogger.comBlogger211100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-12621033200827921672008-03-04T22:52:00.002+08:002008-03-04T23:24:50.873+08:00

i've been disturbed by these thoughts on near future and my future in general lately. all of a sudden all these pressure showed up out of nowhere. all the what ifs and wills are bursting here and there. today, i finally realized that i'm APPARENTLY stressed out and terrified about what will happen in the next few months.on top of that, i have my thesis to handle and tackle in less than 7 weeks

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-2578477473934245912008-03-02T17:21:00.003+08:002008-03-02T23:08:23.099+08:00

though quiet times can be nice every now and then, silence can mislead you sometimes.pfft, i hate it when that happens.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-2029301378294509512008-02-12T14:53:00.000+08:002008-02-12T14:59:29.924+08:00

Apparently:I'm not as nice as I thought I am, and I actually CAN live with this fact.Huff, nuff said!

miss mnoreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-39879366764575507122008-02-12T10:18:00.000+08:002008-02-12T10:38:25.192+08:00

I am thinking to give my self a break. As in stop thinking the unnecessary. Control the mind.I feel that I am a little bit too caught up with unnecessary shit recently. When I thought that I am not holding on to things, that is exactly what happens.Lets back on focus. I have more important things to think and to deal with.OKAY.lets get on the RIDE.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-20285948779396699002008-02-10T21:14:00.000+08:002008-02-10T21:26:02.414+08:00

I just realized that I spent less time now with girl friends, in fact I just realized that..I don't have any. (Gasp!) I mean, I don't have a very close girl friend that I spent my days with and shop and gossip and whine about boys other than my old old friends from back home, and that is only through YM. Occasionally that is.OMG.What the fuck happened?And how did I survived all these time?

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-56554432348549390592008-02-10T13:46:00.000+08:002008-02-10T14:29:11.967+08:00

It is only recently that I wonder and ponder, why I keep on doing what I am doing and think the way I think. Somewhere, at some point in my life, I have stopped wanting things so bad, I have stopped wanting to keep things and feelings in me. I realized that I am less flammable now.Knowing that nothing lasts forever gives me a calm feeling somehow. I am no longer scared of being sad or happy.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-76104961170671278812008-02-07T20:41:00.000+08:002008-02-07T21:46:49.053+08:00

I kinda like Chinese New Year in Singapore. No, not because the discounted items suddenly appear sporadically all over Orchard. Eew, it's so not because of that. It's because CNY here reminds me of Bandung and Jakarta during Idul Fitri. Everyone is at home spending time with their families for once and taking some time off shopping (duh,like it's about time!). And for once Singapore felt like a

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-55034456962763687652008-02-06T22:52:00.000+08:002008-02-06T23:00:39.328+08:00

Hm, I feel a bit uneasy tonight because 'this' paranoia keeps coming and going.I hate being scared.It's normal but it's stupid.Just stupid.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-62796222374578094732008-02-05T12:00:00.000+08:002008-02-05T12:34:30.538+08:00

This place is giving menothing at allthat's why is time for me to leave nowThis city is full of sunshinebut it is so damn coldI want to leave now, I want to leave now, I want to leave nowI woke up late this morning. My alarm sets off at 6 30 and I end up waking up at 8 10, and my first thought was, alright I am late but then I will not do a thing about it. I am just going to lay here on my bed

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-85566555290294132622008-01-22T13:21:00.000+08:002008-01-29T20:53:46.158+08:00

There are lot of things in my mind lately, too many things I don't even know where to start. Manage to get these books to read, non-thesis related that is tee-hee,1) Hocus Pocus by Kurt Vonnegut2) The Vagina Monologues by Eve EnslerHm, I miss home. I hope things work out this Thurs so I can go to Indonesia for a while.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-84044770878366101112008-01-22T13:12:00.000+08:002008-01-22T13:19:01.172+08:00

There is one supreme eternal reality; the truth; immanent in all things; creator of all things; immanent in creation. Without fear and without hatred; not subject to time; beyond birth and death; self-revealing. Known by the Guru’s grace.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-79053826465444883042008-01-14T17:01:00.000+08:002008-01-14T17:15:41.028+08:00

it seems that i've been missing drama in my so called love life.wait a minute, i don't exactly have one. better get dvds' on the drama section.sometimes life can be THAT simple. heheh.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-6615021713315175792008-01-11T15:04:00.000+08:002008-01-11T15:27:04.085+08:00

Very tricky. Miss M is basically an overly controlled person. She likes to keep things to her self, avoids being helpless and complaining. To compensate she releases it with being cynic and skeptic. As the time passes by, a solitary habit starting grow and she doesn't know why. Miss M is also in denial that she is in fact just another weak human being. She thinks she can do everything right and

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-13584328464889138342008-01-11T10:25:00.000+08:002008-01-11T14:05:11.539+08:00

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-13747781698672025482008-01-09T00:24:00.000+08:002008-01-09T22:45:04.189+08:00

When I was younger I always fall for the 'man on the stage'. That guy that plays guitar in some high school band, smokes cigarettes, long haired, beautiful eyes, yea THAT FELLA'. The 'crush' never evolved into a relationship, it's always me behind the window looking from far away. I didn't have the confidence more than giving own made chocolate semi-anonymously on valentine's day. Ah..those days.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-13918974664730115622008-01-07T19:48:00.000+08:002008-01-07T20:35:33.261+08:00

I am so happy that my thesis, apparently started off pretty well. Opposite from the pre-assumption that I was left way behind it turns out that I'm on the same pace with my fellow classmates. Also, I'm excited to work with The Museum collections which means I will be in and out of The Museum and The Museum reference center. I don't know how or when it happened, but now I've become this museum

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-70953563368897846892008-01-06T11:33:00.000+08:002008-01-06T19:03:17.909+08:00

I browse through friends profile on Friendster and Facebook and realized that time flew by very quickly. Friends starting to get married and soon enough producing babies. Now, I don't have any problem with that, no, wait maybe I do, though it is only to a certain extent I do feel envious of them. Envious that they are capable to make a choice to just settle down. Envious of these women whom

miss mnoreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-18137981421446330002008-01-05T20:53:00.000+08:002008-01-06T09:38:30.392+08:00

G is turning 29 today. We went for a movie last night, Warlords. It was 15 mins to 00.00 am, we were both in a taxi ride home, been naughty but nice night.. ;). When the clock turns to 00.01, I was the first one to wish him Happy Birthday.

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-50992809923015473002008-01-04T07:00:00.000+08:002008-01-03T07:21:16.763+08:00

..to find the self within you.I woke up this morning and it's pouring rain outside. As the dawn breaks, it dawns on me that letting go can sometimes be a bit painful in the heart. Yes, I cried just like the sky pours its heart out this very morning.I have a meeting with one of my supervisor this morning. I felt more confident now than I was a couple of months back, yet still I need to tap on

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-69664083733750937702008-01-03T00:04:00.000+08:002008-01-03T00:40:31.967+08:00

I just had a little conversation with G tonight. I was a bit surprised that he brought up this conversation about us and what we're about. I've been seeing him regularly for the past almost 5 months now. I guess it kinda freaked him up that he thinks that I think that things are getting serious. Ah men and their HUGE ego and confidence. Anyway, it's all cleared now, "Yup, G is G, and miss M is

miss mnoreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7688563207002551448.post-60262595029273189702008-01-01T08:06:00.000+08:002008-01-03T00:04:17.281+08:00

As 2008 kicks off, I, unfortunately was a bit left behind on my thesis project. The reason is I have lack of motivation to go through all the process. The lack of motivation is because of this huge disappointment towards the school. To be frank, the school have been nothing but crappy management and lack of expertise. The urge to quit grew stronger ever since I came back from M city. The feeling

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